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  • 2019, my Dad and coming back

    2019 was a year that was filled with loss for me and my family – a dear aunt, my step mother and then Dad. I have not been able to write much, but am now ramping up for NaPoWriMo. Plus, I am beginning a yoga teacher training and have promised to rekindle my writing practice as part of this.

    To recognize all this change, here is a favorite poem that I wrote for Dad, and a few links to others he inspired (he always made me think hard on Veteran’s Day). Hope you enjoy them.

    How trees grow
    Veteran’s Day poems

    Walking through woods without my father

    I am not sure if it is the breeze,
    wilder, more freeing than any in the city,
    or the wintergreen sending its scent
    up to play with the blueberries and pine
    that brings on this longing afresh.
    You would perch yourself on a ridge
    like this one overlooking the lake

    or a forested horizon, endless to me,
    and explain how the horses would trail
    over the opposite ridge or
    how they used to graze in the pasture
    beyond that overgrown farm field,
    how you’d camp between those two trees
    when you were twelve, or on the beach.

    Even though this is a different woods,
    new to you, I am somehow certain
    you would have such stories to tell.
    You’d pause to take in the air, deep
    and daydreamy, with your easy
    swing of a step that said
    you were not in the city, no, not today.

    You’d skim your hand over the leaves
    and look to the sky to tell me the time.

    Dad three portraits
    Dad at about age 12 (my personal favorite), age 20 (heading off to Korea), and age 70.
  • Tanka for working from home

    In interesting times,
    I write at my son’s old desk
    cut into his closet
    stuffed with childhood remnants
    curse, avalanche looms

  • To my Aunt Cathy

    Today, I came online to post that a couple of my poems were published, but this popped to the top of my library, a poem I posted four years ago. How it popped up, I will never know. Today, my Aunt Cathy is living her last breaths. We are all broken hearted. And it seems the only thing to do is to share this again. Peace –

  • Pond and Brook

    I leave my Pond and Brook
    by the bedside,

    with its buzzing mayflies,
    fin-splashed surface,
    amoeba-soaked beach,

    and head downstairs,
    to ease myself
    through churning email

    where minor decisions flutter
    across dry laminate.

    All the while
    the mayflies await my return,

    and chatter
    through their own webs
    of consequence.

  • The hill faraway

    The hill stands innocent
    as it always has –

    empty now, or perhaps drowsily
    crossed by weekend strollers.

    What is left of you there,
    your fellow soldiers:

    the mud of your steps,
    blood melting the snow?

    I breathe in here, where I am now,
    and wonder if walkers there breathe you in.

    I ask if they have come to know you
    as you were, as I never will –

    young, hunkered down,
    slipping past signposts.

    Hills hold memories in their bones,
    in their muscles of rocks and roots,

    in the chimes of their leaves overhead
    where they mix them with now-life.

    It is for us to breathe and to witness,
    to categorize if we can,
    to share, to mix with our own.

    —————

    For my father on Veteran’s Day.

  • The history of my way through water

    Does water remember
    as I make my way across her
    on this diagonal again?

    I clear a wake,
    paddles’ light splashes,
    this side, then the other.

    She self-heals
    in a moment or two,
    yet I wake-splash on.

    Tomorrow it will be the same –
    me launching out,
    she self-healing.

    I like to think
    she takes a history down
    as the ancient scholars would

    and passes it to the next paddler
    on this path
    if ever that should come to pass,

    and if never,
    recalls my wake-splashes
    as a gift

    she could not hold
    any other way
    but in memory.


    Inspired by Ian Stephen’s line (which is the title of this poem) quoted in Robert Macfarlane’s The Old Ways.

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